Freedom From the Past

Welcome to the second video in the Akashic Awakening series. This is Akashic Records, teacher and consultant Dawn Marian. Today we are talking about freedom from the past, and how we create that for ourselves. 

In our first video, we dove into karma, especially relationships with karma, where it tends to show up the most and learned how to recognize when there are past influences showing up in a relationship as well as the first step into releasing the past. And today we're going to take it further and talk about soul healing.

How do we truly free ourselves from the past?

And the past can be as simple as a childhood traumatic event or a dysfunctional environment that you may have grown up in. And it also includes other lifetimes. And the truth is, as a great big magnificent soul, you have had all kinds of experiences and all kinds of patterns and in the Akashic Records we look at patterns that tend to repeat over and over again throughout lifetimes, and that is karma.

If you remember from the first video, it's just the soul wanting to come full circle with a challenge that it had created for itself. And what we call karma is really just the repetition of the efforts of the soul to come all the way back to the beginning, which is realizing that the soul,that I am love, that I am light. I am whole. I am perfect. I always have been. And all of the challenges, all of the struggle, all of the pain are simply an illusion.

So today we're going to take the power back. We're going to talk about how we do that and how we pivot from that place of being stuck in a repetitive pattern, either doing the same things, falling into the same reactions, feeling the same feelings over and over again, and then move it open up the energy so it begins to flow again, so that you can be in the present moment.

Why We Stay Stuck

So what is the number one reason why people stay stuck? As a healer, I know that there is lots of different factors in continuing to stay in a pattern. Let's call it a pattern because it's a very neutral way to look at these habits, actions, responses, feelings that we tend to do cyclicly, right? But in these patterns we stay stuck. Why would we do that as a soul?

I like to think of the patterns, of being stuck, as actually this colossal opportunity.

And if you remember, if you think about how the soul's growth is actually propelled by experience, that experience of coming full circle, of remembering the truth, then you can see that it's not necessarily a bad thing at all to be stuck. Now it can be painful as hell, right, when you're stuck and you are cycling and you are so uncomfortable because you know that there's something more for you and you can't seem to get at it because the weight of the patterns of the past are holding you down, that is not fun. It's very uncomfortable. And I've been there. I know you've been there, this is part of the human experience, but it is an awesome opportunity.

Every moment is a choice. Every moment we have a choice about how we want to show up in that moment. And when we're stuck, we're choosing a past response and using it to create the present moment.

And when you do that enough, that's when it becomes a consistent state for you. And in the terms of karma, which we were talking about in our last video, it's, it's not just one response. It's like many multiple responses that all kind of stack up together. And that's where that weightiness, where that stickiness comes from. But even if we're just talking about patterns or things that we want to evolve in this lifetime, that don't necessarily feel like it's coming from a past life, or it doesn't have that karmic signature on it, we are still looking to come full circle and become present in this moment with what is, and what is the truth on this moment?

Well, we can make it up, right? There are many kinds of meanings and associations that we can have with the present moment. When you start to tune your present moment into the truth, those greater universal truths about who you are, you begin to dismantle all of these illusions and barriers that are holding you back and keeping you stuck.

So a common one that we see all the time, I've been there, maybe you've been there too, and you resonate with this, but it's this idea of scarcity and finances. Like there's not enough money. There's not enough. And every time you go to look in your checking account or think about paying bills in the future, there's this wave of there's just not enough. There's not enough. There's not enough.

And if you grew up in an environment like I did, where there literally was not enough, right? Growing up on welfare and very hand-to-mouth, check-to-check kind of reality. That seems like the truth of what it was for me, for our family, right? And we take it on, I took it on and the truth is unwinding that pattern, which had become very dense over time, over years,  even cellular, right? Because you're steeped in this it's not enough kind of energy and unwinding that meant coming into the present moment and allowing there to be enough.

It is interesting because finances is a place where a lot of folks struggle and look for spiritual solutions to moving out of that scarcity mindset. It is really nuanced. We could talk all day about that. We could do a workshop about that, but I'm presenting that to you as an ideas of how this coming full circle, remembering, wait a minute, there is enough, that I am enough. There's no lack inside of me. And therefore there can be no lack in my world. And in fact, look, I see this, I see this, I see this. I feel grateful for all that I have. It is very true in this present moment that there is enough.

And as you start to counter those old energies with this new truth, you are able to start to change the vibration of things. Now it may take time. I wish I had a magic bullet for that one, right? We all do. We wish we could just push a button and be like, oh, and now I am **ABUNDANT** right? There's a lot of inner work that goes into a changing this story, around finances. And guess what? Your soul loves that! Your soul loves remembering. I am abundance. I am magnificent. I am a creator. I attract abundance. That is the stuff of your soul's dreams.

And so when we can take this higher level position about any place or area in our life where we feel stuck, we are able to start to change it simply because we're looking at it through a lens of what is, and of the present moment, for creating our future out of the present moment. And we're leaving the past, frankly, where it belongs-- in the past. So we're not going back into the past to make sense of things.

So it was a huge, huge insight for me that came from my Akashic Record Keepers, working in the Records regarding my relationship with my mother, a story for another day, right? But they said, you have to look at it from a higher perspective because for your human heart to make sense of what has happened, the betrayal and the abandonment and rejection, you have to dig into the past to find some sort of reason to understand it. And then every time you do that, you pull forward this past energy.

Wow. That nugget of wisdom from my Record Keepersor totally changed everything for me because I had done loads healing up to that place to receive that. But I saw the truth of it. It just doesn't make sense, right? Like what's happening real time. Right? Real time, right now in my life it is not making sense. And I, I can't figure it out. It's senseless, it's nonsensical. So instead of trying to make sense of those things that my child self is really can get in there and say, what is this about? So it must be this, or might be that, or I'm not enough, or blah, blah, blah, Nope. Go up. And you see it from the soul's perspective. Okay. I see. Well, I see these opportunities here for me to really claim my value claim.

My light claim, my goodness. Right? And it's not about anyone else's protection onto me to liberate myself from the past really cool stuff. Really deep healing, really amazing opportunities to come full circle back to that. I am love, I am cure perfect whole. And I always have been, so the number one reason we stay stuck. We keep digging around in the past and it's like, it's like, when you spill like a big jar of syrup all over your kitchen, imagine you knock it off of the counter. And it falls on the, you know, the counter top. And it like rolls down the sides of like the covers on the floor and it's sticky and stuffing it. Right? And like, everywhere you go, they're syrup and you can't get away from it. And all of a sudden you're like, oh, there's syrup in the living room.

How did it get here? And there's no smudge on the wall. Cause you accidentally touch something. Right. This is the equivalent of continuing to go into the past to figure out the present moment. We have to draw a line and say, Nope, I'm going to clean it up and cleaning the syrup up and clean it here. Okay. Here, here. Right. And I'm not tracking back into it. I'm not going back into the mess to do my cleaning, just going to clean it. Okay. So how do we let go of the past? This is a sentiment I hear all the time from students and clients. And that is people are telling me, but I need to let go. I recognize that to be true. I don't really know how, like how do you let go? And when we let go, there is a first thing that must happen.

And that is that the consciousness must remember when we're second, the illusion, we might be uncomfortable, but we don't really know why. When you begin to let go of the past, when you become conscious that there is stuck energy, whether that be a karmic thread or it is an energy, that's more karmic with yourself. You begin to say this isn't true. At first, what happens is we just recognize that we're uncomfortable. That there's, uh, an energy or a weight to the way that we're living, the way that we're feeling like it just doesn't feel good. And it makes sense, right? Because when we live out in an illusion, when we live a lie about ourselves, that says that we're not enough, then that's not going to feel good. Living a lie, never feels right. Or there might be pockets in our life where we're stuck.

We're just cycling through old past energy. And it feels bad because it's meant to feel bad. It's meant to get your attention. It's like your soul's way of saying, Hey, there's some energy here. There's some gold for you to reclaim. Let's look at this place in your life so that you can go in there and heal on a permanent school level. On a deep level, you can heal this. And in this way, your soul offers you the opportunity to heal everything in the present moment, including past lives. This is the magnificence of working in that Akashic records, very holographic in nature. But regardless of whether one steps into healing through a pathway of the Akashic records, we're working with a school where they simply have this evolution in consciousness in which they wake up and they say, wait a minute, we'll make fruit. I'm abundant.

That's my divine nature. Everything that's going on around me is the illusion. And I'm going to wake up out of that illusion. I'm going to do something different in this moment. That is a reflection of what I know to be my truth, not the reality that I'm finding in my environment. This is how we began to do deep healing. And this conscious awakening may span many, many years as we continue to evolve. And it's a higher and higher knowingness about who we are, right? So all the way I think I have the highest level of the soul that I am presence. You may be familiar with that term of that, that part of you that is truly like at the seat of the divine in union that has never, ever laughed at that level. It's pure unconditional love bliss, abundance. And we continue, especially in our human journey.

This is why it's such a ripe sort of a fertile ground for soul growth is we just continue to step it up, right? A level upon a level of an, a level of awareness and understanding. And I'm sure if you look at your own life journey, you'll see that you continue to have more and more clarity, more and more knowingness about yourself as you return to love as he returned to the full expression of your authentic divine self. So the first step letting go is that you have to know that it is time to do it, right. It's consciousness, it's you saying? Okay, not true. What is, and reaching for it, reaching for the truth, instead of into the past to inform you of this moment, then we need to have a willingness, willingness to surrender and like, oh, if we're not really willing to it doesn't quite move the needle the way we want it to.

And sometimes we can be second patterns or something called okay. Off, right? Like, like, like you get something out of being stuck. And I'm sure you might know somebody who is in a, in a cycle with themselves or in a pattern and there's some payoff, so they don't really want to change. They kind of do, you know, and I've been there. I'm sure you have too. Like, we all go through those periods where were deciding if we really want to step into the next level for ourselves and that's okay. That's okay for that person. That's okay if that's where you're at. But this total surrender, this total letting go of the past requires that we are willing to offer it out of our energy fields and back up to source energy so that it can be transformed. And that's the beauty, that's the beauty of this is everything is energy.

And so when you step in and you say, I'm willing to let this go. I know it's not made true. And I offer it up. It's just that energy that's been stuck. How wonderful to send it back up to source so that it can be repatterned unconditional love and the lights that it is. And you also receive the gift of that too. You receive the gifts of yourself coming home, and you continue to close the gap on that cycle that you were stuck in. So beautiful, beautiful process. All soul healing comes from remembering your whole illness. That's it it's wait a minute. I'm, I'm totally worthy of being loved. That abandonment story, that rejection not be trail. That was about them. Not me. I am whole, and I'm worthy of being loved. And in this moment, I'm choosing to be that love for myself. That is what opens the energy and allows it to transform.

That takes the barriers down and begins to shift very powerfully. When you live into that, a lot of times see the spiritual paths. We get a lot of head knowledge. Like we know the universal truth. We know that, that there are certain principles that play within healing and consciousness and the sacred heart, but we don't always put them into practice, right? We don't actually take it, take it into our lives and embody it. And the Steve's what I'm talking about. Isn't opportunity and an invitation for you to embody your own divine essence. And so the more that we can act on it and make choices from the truth, we are able to create very deep, profound soul healing that clears the karma. Whether you go into it from that karmic point of view, and you went out to clear the karma, or you just say, you know what, I'm going to have a relationship with myself that is based on unconditional love, either way, you're going to get to the same place.

Okay. So I have gifts for you, and I'm going to explain it first. And if, and if you feel like you'd like to continue to work with us, then you have the opportunity to use a tool from the Akashic records that I share with all of my students that helps you let go. It helps you get away from that past energy and in to the process. Now, a lot of, uh, talk is, uh, uh, circles around forgiveness. And sometimes people have a hard time of forgiveness. Like if I forgive someone and I'm saying it's okay, or it doesn't matter. And I don't know if I can do that. And if you have those feelings, it's important to honor that because usually that's clue that there's something inside of you at an inner child's part or, or an aspect of yourself that really needs to be witnessed that really needs to be held and loved and witnessed.

And so the idea of forgiveness isn't really resonating with you and that's completely okay. Right. I think forgiveness has been overused by the religious structures in his men and a use against children. Like, you know, you got to forgive your brother, you know, it's, it's, it's, it's been a way to like manage people's energy by telling them that they have to forgive. And if they don't forgive, then they're not godly. And then if you're not godly, then what are you? You are separate, you are bad. You know, it just it's overworks okay. And so the energy from the Akashic crackers is about letting go. It's about surrendering. It's about opening up to the present moment and leaving the past behind. So we're going to use the word letting go. And if you like the idea of forgiving you seriously, you've got some forgiveness work to do.

Sometimes that's appropriate. Then you can look at it through that lens of forgiveness. But the truth is on these higher, higher levels of universal truth, unconditional love. There's nothing to forgive, okay? Because this is your soul's experience. This is your hero's journey. These are your challenges, right? And yes, people do really awful, things that are unforgivable. And the only way that we can let that energy go and, and not be stuck by it is actually to move up into a higher perspective of it. And this includes our own relationships with ourselves and others. So when we're letting go, when we're letting go, the first layer is always the other person, right? This is where we tend to focus on when we're stuck. Like, like, you know, my dad rejected me, my ex cheated on me. My sister betrayed me. Right. It's it's the other person.

And what we want to do is be able to let go of the hurt that they have caused us. And it's not necessarily saying it's okay. It's not saying that we're letting go of that person. If that's not appropriate, or we're not ready to do that, we're saying I'm ready to let go of this, of the seed of hurts of pain that I've been carrying around. And honestly, sometimes it's not a seed, right? Like real deep hurts, but cycles are on betrayal or rejection. Doesn't feel like a seed. It feels like a backpack full of bricks can be very, very heavy. And we have to be willing to stop carrying the backpack, stop carrying the weight of the pain, because what we're carrying, what we're holding is pain. It's not even the action that the person did. Right. It's the pain from the, that results from the events.

Okay. So too willing to let that go and are letting go. And vocation that we have from the Akashic records simply says, if anyone has hurt me in the past consciously or unconsciously, please help me to open my heart and release it. They helped me to just open my heart to releasing those who have hurt me. Right? That's the first layer. The next layer that we have with this journey into letting go is ourselves. Okay. So this is all of the, the laundry lists that you're keeping against yourself, of how you have messed up in the past, how you have been schmuck, how you have been out of your integrity and out of your alignment, okay. To other people. And it's saying, I am willing to let that go. Like that time that my 20 year old self did those terrible things and hurt other people.

I'm willing to let the pain of that go, right? I'm willing to let any pain that I've caused someone else. Oh, like I'm not carrying that from, from on my own side anymore. You think about it for back to the backpack illustration. It's like first you have like the backpack that filled with a weight of how people hurt you. And then you add more work fun. Like this is how I've been hurting people, my whole life, right? It's very, very heavy, very, very heavy. You have to be willing to let it go. Because again, if when we reach into the past, we activate that energy. And the truth is the only present moment is this very moment. In fact, the time that has elapsed since I started seeking in this video is now the past. And you're a different person, even in that short space of time.

And we continue to dig back into the past, but all the reasons why we can't do something or why we are not good enough or not qualified to step into our light or to do the next thing or to take our next step because of the past is informing us. And we have to let that go. If we're going to show up fully in this moment as our true, authentic selves, the next layer, and this is the big one. Cause it's the one that not too many people talk about, very focused letting go forgiveness. That sort of energy is outwardly focused on the other person. It's maybe the event, right? It's that it's like, well, you hurt them. There's a layer in all of this where we've heard ourselves. And that sometimes is the deepest layer often. It's the ones that we get to last right of not only has the situation or the pattern been really painful for me, but I also believe the lie.

And so I think about inner child healing in this context, when you grow up with those messages, that you're not enough, or there's something wrong with you or something inherently is flawed within you. Right. That was my story. Definitely. There was a part of me that agreed with it, like a big part, because that was survival. That was me trying to just survive this really hostile, harsh environment that I found myself growing up in. And I agree with it. Yeah. There is something wrong with me because I felt wrong. I felt like out of place. And there were lots of, um, messages coming in to confirm the fact that I was sad. Right. So I would just agree with it. Now there's a part of me that never fully swallowed the poison. Always. There's always a part of us. And that's the part that I was talking about.

That that feels the discomfort because you're living a lie and it's awful, but it's actually really part of your soul, alerting you to like, Hey, not true. Look at that's not true. Right? So the part of me that swallow the lie hook line and sinker is the part that I needed to like a lot. I needed to let go of that energy that I had hurt myself because of course, and I hear this a lot from some of my older students who will say, I'm just starting to awaken and I'm 65 years old. Right. I could have used this information 40 years ago, you know, and it's like, wait a minute, wait a minute. Let's come full circle, present in this moment. Right. You only know as much as you know, in the moment and you can only make the best choices you can with the information you have in the moment.

And so when we let go of the past and we let go of our, um, our Peabody that we hold inside of ourselves for not having made good choices or the most supportive choices, or, um, anyone who's sat into like addiction or, um, some like really deep, uh, uh, self-sabotaging patterns and like move through the other side of it gets this right. And I think all of us have this to a degree because this is humans or human nature where you see like, wow, that was really wild, right. That was really unconscious behavior. And look at all this stuff that I, you know, that I did with myself, you know, I was not in alignment with myself. I let people trample my boundaries and I got in unsafe situations or whatever the thing is right within their [inaudible].

So what happens when you put all this together is that you have, uh, a space that you open up that does not leave any room for any past energy to come through, because we were working with letting go of anything from the past, right? Whether conscious or unconscious, and we're working with all of the different layers when you can really surrender into that and, and open your hearts to yourself and to this moment and to the truth, deep, deep soul healing can occur. Now, sometimes it's a one and done, right? Like if it's a little kerfuffle with somebody at work or, you know, just a little thing with a neighbor that just seems to drag on, but it's, you know, kind of a, you know, B grade kind of deal, you know, using those invocation is usually enough, but it just moves that energy. It clears the energy.

You let go, we're talking about something a little bit better, like maybe a really charged, um, relationship that has ended for example, or, and you can do a scan. This is really fun. If you just think about like, what's still sticky for me. Like, like, what are the sites on my timeline? Where am I, where am I stuck? And you're like, oh, that guy, you know, that, that guy in junior high, you know, and you can just feel your like, energy, like prickle up and your blood pressure raise your blood starts to boil. Right. If you have those kind of reactions, like there's a clue, there's something there to look at, right? There's some stuck energy to free and it's totally okay. That's great. Your system is working like your, your internal guidance and your soul guidance system is working because it's showing you, oh, you're triggered.

You're charged here, go get your goals, right. Go get the gifts that's hiding underneath all of this second energy. So this gifts for you is a PDF of this Akashic invocation that I share it. Somebody level, one training on how to open your records, that allows you to let go truly to clear on a very deep soul level. Anything that is weighing you down from the past. Now, why is it so important though? And that is because when we free up the energy from the past, we now have more life force energy in the present moment to create. So it's energy that we can use to fuel ourself care with it's energy that we can use to have magnificent experiences with our loved ones and our families. It's energy. We can use to create a business or energy we can use to actually serve others, right.

From my healers and my, and my impasse out there who really have this purpose to help humanity awaken well, once you're not pulling all of those past garbage anymore, right? Cause it is just stuff from the past that doesn't serve you, right. Except for, to reclaim, you've got your energy back. Now you can start creating from this present moment. And that's what we're going to talk about in the next video is how to take this big energy. That's you, your soul energy, your light, your divine purpose, and live a life of meaning. And we're going to talk a little bit about soul purpose. We're going to talk about how to tune in to that inner wisdom again, because the later you are in your own being, because you're free from the past, the easier it is to hear that internal guidance, to hear that those intuitive messages that you get from your guides or from a masters of their energies that you're working with and use it so that you can fully be aligned with your sacred mission and your divine purpose on this life. So thank you for listening and I'll see you in the next video.